Monday, June 8, 2009

mood = stormy

Which is worse: Not knowing what you want in life and spend your days confused, or knowing exactly what you want in life and everything just does not fall in place no matter how hard you try?

Been feeling troubled by the same old problems for several years, to the extent they are like old 'friends' likened to wounds now. These are the hidden wounds that everyone has, at least one, depending on one's own definition of 'problem'.

Even the personal mantra of 'putting on your best mood, to face the worst situations', a literal translation of my favorite mandarin saying, have overstretched my limits of optimism.

It is pretty frustrating and depressing to find that no matter how hard one tries to make things even a least bit better continuously for such a long time, regardless of how optimistic one tries to be despite carrying a heavy heart; there is bound to be the final straw that marks the point of giving up.

3 comments:

  1. sorry to hear you are having such a stormy monday. tuesday has to be better. and there is always wednesday, thursday . . .

    you have a very interesting blog. i found it because of one of your favorite movies, Departures which i assume is the award winning Japanese movie. i saw it in Japan in April and then again on a flight from Japan to LA in May. i am sure i will watch it again when it comes out on dvd.

    oh, i use JVC "Marshmellow" earbuds with my iPod. give 'em a try.

    time to get on with my sunny monday.

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  2. Hey babe, I know how it feels like to be lost with no direction in life so it must be better on the other side - knowing what you want and trying all you can to get there.

    Hang in there, sweetie. You will get there. Someday, somehow. We all have got to start somewhere, right? :)

    Love,
    Constance

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  3. Thanks all! :)

    Tonykaku (anyway?): I'll try the JVC earphones after this current one that I recently bought. Have a feeling I'll need a new one again though. LOL

    Constance: True. Thanks sweetie!

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